Winter 2023
@ Little Skips waiting for [redacted] to finish a closing shift. Random cute ish person next to me. Isn’t that always fucking true at some indie ass BK coffee shop? That a beanie ass mf next to you is cute? And omfg this b is reading all about love by bell hooks.
Anyway — secured my gym membership today with a hefty down payment. An earlier page of my journal will reveal that my dreams have been gay as f. (“I’m having nonstop gay trans dreams lol about everything from queer music communes to bottom growth or coming out stories. I see myself reflected in some but not all of them. Sometimes there are people I’ve never met – or maybe that I invented – present, typically as my friends :)”)
I’ve been worrying today that I’m a narcissist lol. At the very least I probably do have a high horse…but what does it say about me that I haven’t listened to [redacted]’s project yet? Or subscribed to [redacted]’s newsletter? It does worry me a bit. I’m trying, in response, to be more deliberate about how I engage with people’s stories, projects, problems, etc. But what does it say about me that I have to think actively about that?
Am I evil…lol probably not.
rolluptotheclubselfdestruct 
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